Icarus is doing an awesome favor for me reading my preliminary version of The Motorman that’s finished in the sense that there’s a beginning, middle and end and its as proofread as I was personally able to manage at the time, which evidently left a messload of typos and screwups anyway.
So far the feedback has mainly taught me not to overwork myself and not to rush. I literally worked for several months from basically dawn to dusk trying to finish this before September came around and running on extremely outrageous amounts of caffeine to the point where I thought the East Coast Earthquake was just me shaking the table too much as I rocked in my seat trying not to fall asleep while writing.
I was basically stuck in this mindset like this was my last chance ever to finish this. I don’t know, I just have problems I guess.
Also, I’m now constantly paranoid that people will think every character/thing in my story is a His Dark Materials expy or analog. This is kind of ironic since I was first recommended those novels by a professor after she read some Motorman related material I had already written.
Plus, I’ve always tried to be really careful about appropriating stuff from existing stories. In fact I deliberately avoided reading certain things or watching certain films I knew I would like so I could avoid being influenced by them.
For instance, I knew absolutely nothing about The Last Crusade aside from the fact that they were looking for the Holy Grail and that at some point they stowed away on the Hindenburg.
Because of that, I avoided seeing that movie for YEARS knowing that if something awesome happened related to the airship, and I was writing a story where they were airships, I might end up accidentally copying something from the movie thinking it was my own idea.
I also never read any actual steampunk literature before aside from HDM, which I often hear just barely counts as steampunk.
It already hurts enough to hear people think that Doorworms were inspired by the stupid braid tentacle things the aliens have in Avatar. If someone tells me that my version of Tesla is a Lord Asriel knockoff or that Doorworms are just a substitute for daemons I really just don’t know if my story is even salvageable.
but of course if that’s the case I trust my friends will be frank with me about it.
aaaaaaaalright time to step in here with a head full of GERMS and talk about guns
look i am an american. i have never owned a gun. i have never shot a gun. guns scare the shit out of me. but i love squirt guns and nerf guns and LASER GUUUUUUUNS and nintendo zappers and all that stuff. it’s just fun to pretend to be han solo and go PEW PEW but i’m getting off topic
the thing is i hate guns, i really do, but the fundamentals upon which our country was built kind of…go away when you can’t own a gun. the whole point is that if you have a gun and your government goes all crazy on you (say, marching through your home town demanding you throw your jews out, or demanding you throw your gays out, or demanding you throw your women who opted to have abortions out?) you can pick up your gun, point it at them, and say ‘over my cold, dead body.’
individual citizens owning guns was what basicly lead to america BECOMING america. it’s a right that as a country we hold very near and dear.
the government goes to all reasonable lengths to ensure that guns are registered. it goes to very reasonable lengths to ensure people with criminal records or histories of mental instability can’t get guns. it goes to reasonable lengths to ensure that people must WAIT to purchase their guns, rather than impulse buy a semi automatic and go on a killing spree.
you can buy gun safes for stupid cheap. the government basicly does all it can to ensure people are responsible with fire-arms. that doesn’t mean people are always going to be.
some parents are stupid. some parents let children play with guns. some parents don’t put their guns where kids can’t reach them. some parents leave guns loaded and lying around. i make no excuse for these people, they’re idiots. there are always going to be idiots. but to argue that the entire country is at fault because we choose to protect our right to, as a people, have an armed revolution at any time? is bullshit, man.
i mean we can also make excuses about having them for personal safety but that’s not really where america’s love affair with guns begins or ends. it’s that we feel owning fire arms protects our individual rights. a bit like a security blanket. our constitution says we can own guns - it says nothing about only smart people or responsible people owning guns. we fought for the right to live under that constitution with guns. people feel like this weapon will help them keep their rights sacred, and you know what, maybe that’s not correct? but that’s the way it is over here.
the point is
guns are scary. guns kill people. that’s part of the danger of having a gun. kind of like if you adopted a dog that was used in dog fights? it might bite you once or twice. it might even kill a smaller animal. but you adopted it, you knew that was a risk. you ACCEPTED that risk. if you were a GOOD PERSON you would have taken every precaution available to ensure that nobody else had to suffer for your risk.
the government can’t walk into peoples’ homes and tell them to lock their guns up or check to make sure the safety is on or anything. that’s kind of uh…intrusive. and if they did, i imagine the black market for unregistered firearms would boom even larger than it is now, and in essence it’d wind up even more of a dangerous situation.
this country has a love affair with guns. it’s a long, deep one that goes back to our founding. you can’t make americans give up guns any more than you can make canada give up being polite or japan give up being naively racist. it’s a national quirk. i mean, here i am, saying how much i hate guns and yet writing a fucking thesis statement on why it’s not the fault of the country but the fault of the parents that some kid got hurt.
and it IS the fault of the parents.
shit i can see bringing a knife to school
shit, i used to bring deer skinning knives to school when i was a fourth grader. because it’s much easier to teach knife safety to a child than it is gun safety. if little timmy told the parentals he was bringing a gun to school? they should have said ‘now hold on timmy, don’t you think that’s a show and tell for a day when we can come WITH you? children are not allowed to have guns in school.’
if little timmy SNUCK the gun to school, again, the parents are strictly at fault. that gun should have been locked up. it should have been out of reach. it should have been at the very least hidden in a place timmy wouldn’t find it (and i’m not talking about where you hid the xmas presents, dipshit. every child knows THAT spot). and honestly if it’s not in a locked safe? it should have been checked on once a day to MAKE SURE YOU KNEW WHERE IT WAS. it SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN KEPT LOADED. these are stupid mistakes made by the individual gun owner.
let’s go back to dogs for a minute.
say i own a pitbull
and so does my neighbor
but my neighbor is a shitty dog owner. they hurt the dog, they treat it poorly, they encourage aggressive behavior from it. for the sake of the metaphor, let’s also pretend nobody but the owner knows about this. anyway.
one day, their dog gets loose. and being an abused dog, it goes aggressive and bites someone.
does that mean ALL pitbulls should be euthanized? does that mean ALL DOG OWNERS are idiots? does that mean the country which originally began to breed bullys for fighting is at fault? NO.
it means the individual owner done fucked up. it means the original owner is the idiot. the original owner shouldn’t be allowed to own the object in question (be it guns, dogs, whatever). the original owner is the person to bring the hammer down on, not the larger population of responsible citizens who KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THINGS.
AND THAT LADIES AND GENTS IS HOW YOU GET AN ANTI-GUN AMERICAN TO RANT IN FAVOUR OF GUNS “
I got an 80 on my first test, a multiple choice test.
I literally SHOULD have and DESERVED a 100.
One of the questions, I KNEW THE CORRECT ANSWER, and was consciously and vividly aware of “aha! “Vatican II”! that’s the right answer”, but for no reason at all that I can understand, I circled the wrong option, with the professor even putting a check on the paper next to Vatican II, confirming that to be the right option.
I KNEW THAT. I KNEW I KNEW THAT. HOW DID I CIRCLE THE WRONG ONE?
Then there was another question that was virtually a GIVEAWAY.
Somehow I managed to fail to even circle an option for it.
So I got an 80 when I should have got a 100 and did all the reading and new all the answers.
I’m not outraged or pissed, but this, amongst several other things, I’m just unfathomably dissatisfied and annoyed right now.
I got a four pack DVD at Target a week or two ago with 4 Pokémon movies for 5 bucks.
So tonight instead of watching the Super Bowl, I watched Pokémon: Jirachi Wish Maker.
(minor spoiler ahead)
Now recently, I’ve very slowly started working on this Pokéfic I’ve had in my head for years and am attempting to write only because I consider it on my bucket list, and the opening chapter concerns an air battle between the OC main character’s Flygon and the Salamence of a secondary villain from the Diamond/Pearl anime series.
What I didn’t know about this movie, was that there’s this scene where Ash is riding a Flygon and the villain is riding a Salamence and they have an awesome dogfight shooting energy/fire beams and stuff.
I felt like I was watching my own fic for a split second.
And even after that the Flygon comes back AGAIN for more awesomeness.
If you like Flygon, this movie is worth it just for that alone, but even as these movies go, it’s not bad, but its not the best.
I could review the movie itself, but don’t feel like it now or something. I really need to go to bed.
I do in fact watch stuff besides Pokémon. Actually I watch Pokémon so infrequently its kind of a treat for me when I do. I just don’t feel like blogging about it.
Also, whatever the hell “highlighting” is, I’m not paying a dollar to do it.